I walked into my new home, holding the hands of the one I love the most; John.
Our wedding was finally over and it was time for our marriage to begin.
“Baby, we’re going to have a beautiful home. Jesus is with us” He said, smiling from ear to ear.
I smiled back and nodded. I really needed to hear those words “Jesus is with us”, because sincerely, lately I’ve been worried about this marriage.
Don’t get me wrong. I love John and there’s no other person on this planet who I’d want to spend the rest of my life with but I’m scared.
Where do I start from?
Will I make a good wife?
Will I make a good mom?
How will it be, living alone with a man? I’ve always lived with my parents.
Do we have enough to start a home?
What of the little things, here and there that we don’t have in our house yet?
All these thoughts flooded my mind as we walked into our new house. I over think things and it really affects me.
I pushed those thoughts aside, determined to enjoy my first night as a Mrs.
The next morning, we decided to unwrap our presents from the wedding and that was when my understanding was lightened.
I began to unwrap the most unexpected gifts from my friends and family; things I had been worried about, things I didn’t even know I’d need in my new house. They were all sitting right in front of me.
The door bell rang.
A man came to deliver a brand new deep freezer, another gift from my husband’s boss. I jumped in excitement.
I had been thinking about a deep freezer.
Worried about the fact that we didn’t buy one, but I didn’t want to stress John because he had spent so much already and I didn’t want to buy it with my money because I knew he’d not like it.
Now, behold, look at the deep freezer given to us on a platter of gold.
My husband took the pen and scribbled on a book, signifying that he had received the delivery.
“Thank you very much” He said to the the delivery man, after he had brought the freezer in and installed it.
I walked back into our room and looked at all the unboxed presents and tears filled my eyes. My friends and family had looked ahead of me, in this new journey and bought things that I didn’t even know I’d need. How thoughtful of them all.
All through that first week of my marriage, gifts kept rolling in from different people and by the end of the week, I had almost everything I wanted in my house and even more.
It wasn’t a completely perfect house, and all my worries aren’t settled yet. But I had a better understanding; God knows just what I need and he will supply everything at the right time.
Immediately a scripture popped into my mind.
She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.Proverbs 31:25 NLT
If my friends could go ahead to think of things I’d need to be comfortable in this new phase, how much more will God, my Father
“… and she laughs without fear of the future. “
There are times in our lives when we’re undergoing or should be undergoing a transition but it really looks blurry ahead.
The Devil takes advantage of these thoughts and plunges us into fear, uncertainty and even depression. He begins to show you all the reasons and the statistics why it’s not going to work out.
It all begins to “add up” and you feel like giving up at life.
I bring a Word from God to you today; Rest.
Your Father knows that you have need for these things.
In Matthew 6:32-33 when Jesus said,
Today, I want you to replace every fear and uncertainty about your future with trust and confidence in God.
Openly declare to God that you trust Him with your future so you can laugh without fear.